Once upon a Sunday evening

Blowing winds through the afternoon followed by a welcome shower ushered in Sunday evening that was a pleasant surprise atleast weather wise. My balcony full of plants of all sizes and types were visibly pleased with the sudden rain that washed away days of accumulated dust and they seemed to be literally dancing away to the rain song ! Its never the same even if I painstakingly wash them with my watering can, they dont do this dance sequence for me :) This afternoon was especially pleasing because with the onset of the rain and the temperature dropping several degrees to a most pleasant atmosphere - it induced sleep in both my 5 yr old and 5 months old at the same time. And I was most happy to be sandwiched between the two on my bed and sleep for that precious half an hour at a stretch which is otherwise so elusive these days ! But more than the sleep , it almost seemed like the world was perfect with the two boys next to me, the little one's hand clutching at my dress and mouth slidely open and the elder one curled up next to me after one of our many endless fights and kind of having made peace with me afterwards. I never knew till my first son was born that kids could bring in such an enormous sense of peace and joy. I always loved children, to talk to them, to understand their world, but having my own burst open the doors of unconditional love and happiness that I really didnt know exist. I still feel so overwhelmed with emotions at times when I see their innocent faces and breaking out into senseless laughter or the sudden hug or just seeing them .. its so difficult to believe that they;re real some times !

anyway , the superstitious side of me always takes over at these times and I chide myself for being so much taken into them and feel that some harm will come over them if I clutch them so tightly to my soul , so I try to let go - not very successfully all the time, but atleast I try.

today was an overall satisfying day with the foodie in me being satiated with a self cooked lunch of Penne with prawns in a feta cheese sauce and a fresh garden salad with multigrain bread and some Frech cheese - yummy ! it just tasted awesome. I am increasingly falling in love with very fragrant cooking. I realized thats precisely why i just love Thai food because of each of the flavours blending in with each other and the fragrance of each ingredient combined into a superb singular taste. Last Friday, I made this chicken with fresh fenugreek and coconut milk and the effect was a mindblowing fragrance. It was very funny because I had to cook in the morning since I had to go to work in the afternoon (it was my turn to be at home in the morning with my baby), so in the middle of work, I felt like making this chicken and then the whole day I was looking forward to coming back home for dinner so that I could finally have the chicken whose smell haunted me through the day ! You might call that obsession with food - well, in a certain sense, maybe yes , but not in a greedy sense. Just rounding off the week with a good meal !

Tomorrow is the start of another work week. Hopefully I keep my spirit of being patient and determined to not let anything "get" to me - I think that's the key to enjoying what life has to offer. So many times life has gone by while I have been busy being angry at it , but the "moments" in the meanwhile get washed away with that sense of anger or rage. Something that never comes back no matter how much you want it to.

Oh, well , let the good sense prevail and along with it my peace - once upon a Sunday evening so I realized :)